Emotional mix

Today was a very peculiar day (night, to be precise).
Whore had a free day in RL and spent a lot of time reading different blogs, forums about all BDSM aspects. In the evening Miss could came online to see her property. Miss wanted to talk to whore and asked her different question, whore told Miss her SL story (from the very beginning): about her unowned period, about some experience with banishment, and all whore's owners.
After that Miss lead whore back to a playroom. Whore was alone at that moment in RL and asked if she can wear RL clips or even play with herself (that was the first time whore asked permission for playing in RL). Miss was surprised (whore was surprised with her own question too). Miss told whore to put clips and pass course 2 times in a row before it.Whore passed, not for the first attempt, but has passed.

(new course picture)

Miss granted whore a permission to play with herself, but demanded to describe what was going on in RL. Whore offered Miss to guide her in playing and Miss agreed.
Miss started slowly and didn't want to be quick, however whore was already horny. Miss leaded whore telling how and where she must touch herself, how hard and so on. Whore tried to react as quickly, as she could. Miss grins doing it and put remarks like: "It suits you whore" from time to time. That made whore blushing, but very-very horny(RL). Finally whore was rubbing herself fiercely, moaning out loud and humping on her chair. For some RL reasons, (whore limits) Miss can't permit whore to have an orgasm (and whore can't grant it to herself too), that's why whore had to stop herself at the edge.Whore was shaking from desire and lust. Whore wants only one thing -- more stimulation. But Miss Eve told to stop and whore couldn't disobey.
All that was so unexpected, strange, humiliating and at the same time excited and delightful. Miss told whore to pass the course one more time and whore did it reeling from side to side(SL) with shaking hands on the mouse(RL). But whore made it from the first attempt. After that whore begged for some more touchings, but Miss denied and ordered whore not to play with herself one more hour. That was hard for whore and so wise for Miss, as the first 10-50 minutes from the edge are filled with the desire most of all.
After that Miss talked to whore for some more time and discussed what had happened. Figured out, everyone enjoyed the "incident". And that made whore hope for continuation some day.

After logging out from SL, whore thought a lot about what had happened. And how it can effect her RL. Finally whore concluded, that it has positive sides:

1. Whore should be guided and limited in playing with herself in RL and now Miss can do it, if she'd like to, of course.
2. Whore deals better with orders from some other people, then with selfmade decisions and ordered by Miss whore can be more often denied, then before.
3. Now Miss can influence not only whore's avatar in SL, but also RL person and even (oh, God!) make some RL punishments for RL and SL faults (for making whore better property in SL and better submissive in RL).
4. Miss, knowing now much more about whore, didn't move away from whore and seemed even liked what is going on.
5. Miss has more opportunities and directions to develop her... mm... relations with whore.

But there are some negative sides too:

1. Whore has some moral responsibilities in RL and should be very careful not to brake or make harm to them.
2. Whore should now be very careful, as mixing RL and SL can lead to something bad (but can be a way to something very good too!!!)

And now, whore has a real mix of emotions inside: desire to continue and see what will this lead to, fear from unknown and unexpected (but really wanted) RL power exchange.

New goals, old ways

Whore was not writing much for the last several weeks.
There were holidays and a lot of thing to do before and after them.
Miss Eve seems to have nearly the same and whore had not seen Miss for a long time (just could exchange offline messages and rarely chat online with out any time for full actions)

And at last, she managed to meet her property. Whore was very glad. Main news were: an addition to the whore's training course (sorry, have no picture at a moment), and that Miss has changed her mind about her property degradation.

Miss told that, degradation was not really her kind of things, but she doesn't refuse the ownership, but wants to treat her whore another way. What way? Well, Miss told (as whore could understand) more traditional way for slaves and will try to make this whore suitable for being proud with. Miss said that some day (not a close future) she will go out with her property back to the public (whore was not in public SIMs for several months already).

However, Miss mentioned, that whore's place will be at the floor and not an inch higher.

After all that, whore was left alone and had some time to think about all those news.
Whore really wants Miss Eve to be proud of her property and to be better, but has no idea how to do it. That's why whore thought about it and here's the list of things whore thinks she can (and maybe must?) to improve:

1. Do her best to complete every Miss' order.
2. Test and (hope) prove (practically) whore's devotion and faithfulness to Miss Eve.
3. Make less writing and grammar mistakes.
4. Learn to answer short and clear
5. Learn not to make a lot of talking here and there (be quiet, until is asked directly)
6. Learn to feel her place and state every second of being near Miss and even without her.
7. Develop submission in any kind and sense Miss wants whore to do it.