Pet's place

Life is going on. RL and SL.
After much talking with Miss Eve, after her reading whore's favorite stories, and some time, Miss Eve decided this whore to make another step toward her real nature of a complete property of Mistress. Today Miss Eve ordered this whore's profile photo and placed it on the cage (another part of that cage is marked with Alvie's picture). After that Miss proclaimed new rules for this whore:

1. Whore should logg in and off only, placed inside her cage (keeping door closed, but unlocked).
2. Whore can't use teleport inside the house and should walk up and down the stairs.
3. Whore can't be inside the house alone and can only pass through it, walking to some other destination (like a skybox, for example)
4. Whore is now must learn to emote less human way (not hands, head and so on, but only paws, muzzle, etc.)

 (whore in her part of the cage)

That's a new place of this whore in the SL.

Wonderful story...

This day was a busy Monday and whore has to work a lot. Whore decided to let Miss know, that whore will absent online today and logged to SL. For some strange coincidence, Miss was online just at near the place whore came. Whore explained that she's busy with some RL work, but can't stop herself from chatting with Miss working meanwhile.
It's very important for relations (and D/s relations are relations too) to have opportunity and a wish for communication. Whore highly appreciates Miss spending her time, talking to this whore, explaining or asking something. This day it was just a chat, but in some part of it whore was describing what she likes in submission and remembered a story, that she has read several years ago. One part of that story makes this whore's mind blow. Whore told in her own words what was that about and then tried to find this story. At first whore has no success, as she did not remember the names of the characters and any other details. But then whore went to the same site, she had found that story for the first time of her life and found it there. The story was there, but was translated from the English to whore's native language. But knowing the names, whore found it rather quickly.
And now whore can happily share this story with all readers of this blog. Story is called "Loyal Daughter" by cowgirl. Hope you will like the reading.

PS. Whore considers the last page the most powerful and can't read it without getting aroused, horny and submissive.

Building, scripting and imagine

Today whore has got a new task from Miss Eve. The task is to build some object, so that a person can be placed there (Miss gave a poseball to be placed in the object) and looked like being in shackles. Then whore must make a script of changing this object color into black by clicking on it (if this whore is not far then 5m from the object, regardless how far the clicker is). And finally, whore has to write a fiction story, containing usage of this object.
For that reasons Miss Eve gave whore permission to build in some part of her house and make her inventory accessible.

 (a pose of a poseball whore was given)

First of all, whore started to think about an object, that she will build. Whore couldn't found any suitable pictures of shackle, where a person was sitting. So whore tried to think about it herself. Main ideas for it are:

1. А cage, like a round cage for a bird with bars by perimeter. So person will be locked by ankle and maybe neck.
2. Another one (whore likes more) is some kind of human furniture. For example a table with a person locked inside, so there's only head above the top. So another person sitting at that table can communicate... or use locked person any other way. Something like in this post. A variant of this direction -- is a bed, where a face of a locked slave can be used as one of the posts, or a pillow or something.
3. The third idea -- is a kind of a human-toilet or a face-chair. It can be achieved with rotating the sitball and cover legs with some decoration.

As for scripting, whore will read manuals and look at her previous results, as far as whore remembers, script will not be very complicated (maybe changing color of multiPrimed object can be a bit tricky, but not too hard).

The last part of the task -- is the story. Whore has some ideas, but that it depends on the object that will be finally build.

Talk to a stranger

Whore was waiting for Miss to come online, when an unknown Sir IMed her. Whore replied and phrase by phrase there was a talkю Whore tried to show her manners and be polite with  Sir. Sir, who's name is Steve Fugue, seemed be interested in that conversation. Sir Steve was impressed with good manners of this whore and even wrote about it to Miss Eve (hope he did and Miss Eve will be glad to hear that).
After Sir Steve figured out, that whore is owned and strongly restricted, but still can be used by anyone, whom Miss Eve will like to give whore to. That make Sir Steve write something else to Miss Eve (whore has no idea what was that, but fully rely upon Miss Eve clear mind and her love to her property).
Sir talked to whore one more time a bit later. And whore knows, that Miss Eve had a short talk to him. But whore has no idea what are Miss Eve's plans concerning this. And that's a great feeling of unknown future, but 100% assurance in the fact, that Miss Eve will make a right decision.

And there's one more feeling about that talk and Sir's opinion about whore's manners: whore is proud to be interesting for people (for use, talk, or both). Thank you Miss for training (maybe indirectly sometimes) this whore.

A new pet

Today Miss Eve has got a new pet... but let this whore tell everything in order.

The day before Miss Eve had put this whore on a massage device, that sucked and massaged her breast (what a wonderful feeling it was). And even added one more vibrator to this whore cunt. Unfortunately that lasts not so long.
Unfortunately, whore had to leave that day, but on the next day Miss Eve continued playing with her whore.

She put her on a device with 2 vibrators and run them both. To train whore keep silent, Miss put a banana gag into the whore's mouth and set it up to shock whore's tong every time she's trying to say something out loud. At first it was not difficult, but as whore was coming closer and close to the edge of orgasm, keeping muted was getting harder and harder.

 (whore ridding 2 vibrators at the same time)

Finally whore had got shocked from the belt and gag in one time. That made whore cry more, and another shock to her mouth made whore strive hard and shut up. Then absolutely unexpected, Miss took whore's chastity off and let whore have an full-blown orgasm, that made this whore scream one more time and get several shocks from banana gag again. After that Miss seemed to be satisfied. And then she told: "I can make you scream when I want, I can make you have an orgasm when I want, I don't even have to do anything for it" -- one phrase, just a phrase, but somehow, it made this whore feel a strike of submission.Some kind of deep submission, when whore completely understands her place and that makes her ready for everything her owner will order. Rather strange and very-very pleasant feeling.

Then whore was milked by Miss for the first time and even gave some milk. Whore was so glad, that she could finally do it (milk producing). Although it hurts a bit while sucking, but it was still very pleasant. Then whore had to drink all produced milk.

After all that Miss made herself comfortable on the couch and whore was placed nearby on the carpet, chained to the leash post. Miss had put on whore bits and bridle. Whore was not supposed to talk again and can emote not much then an animal can. Miss Eve wanted to ask whore some questions. During that whore  could only answer "yes" or "no" and emote in some way. At first it was not easy to keep silent, but as the talk goes on, whore felt very comfortable without right for the words and at the end of conversation acts easily.

Whore felt comfortable, sitting naked, on her knees, before Miss Eve, having no names, maps, TP and inventory access, having no right to speak and no chance to run away. If only someone tell this whore some time ago, she would not believe that person. And whore can hardly believe herself, writing all that now.

And at the end of conversation Miss asked the main question of that day (at least for the whore):

Miss Eve slides a finger briefly through your hair and smiles
Whore take a deep breath in...
Miss Eve: Then a question whore, are you happy like this?
Whore waits a bit...
Miss Eve: Hmm, could you be happy like this
Whore slowly nods...
Miss Eve grins
Whore feels a tear drops from her eye...
Whore looks down...
Miss Eve: I somehow knew that would be the answer
Whore moves a bit forward, but can't move much...
Miss Eve wipes the tear away and hugs you
Whore tries to stay as close to Miss as she can
Miss Eve: I want you to remember what you just answered whore, and to know what you are once again. For it is what you are
Whore takes several deep breathes... and nods
Whore feels more tears came from her eyes, but she looks happily at Miss...

And that's absolutely true feelings. Thank you for all that, Miss Eve.

Long-waited present

Today was a wonderful evening for this whore.Alvie was a bit free and had a chance to take this whore's chastity off. Oh! What a feeling... whore was not taking that belt for some months already. Whore wishes everyone to try something like that... at least once... just to know what it is.
Some time ago Alvie was surprised with this whore, having 99 of recovery on the Sensations HUD. Whore has got used to that state, having nearly every touch make her horny and easily dripping from even a short play. So today Alvie took whore's chastity off to give whore a release, so long-waited and so many times begged for release.
There's a wonderful wooden frame at Miss's house, that can be used as a solo bondage device, as a  posing device, and as a two or three people sex device. Alvie and this whore know this device quite enough, as some we both were used on it in some other SIMs. Once Alvie started touching this whore, whore felt out into the state of desiring more and more, unstopping pleasure, riding on waves of orgasms. From some moment whore started to answer Alvie, touching her and making Alvie to orgasm too. It was a loud action of passion and love.
We were so concentrated on pleasure, that didn't mention Miss Eve's appearance. And even after we did, we can hardly stop from touching each other, and kept kissing .

(whore and Alvie can't stop kissing and touching each other, even, when Miss Eve looks at them)

But after a bit looking at slaves playing, Miss decided to take part and fucked Alvie with her strapon, and whore had to sit under them, catching juices, dripping from Alvie's hot pleasure hole. But Miss Eve would not be a real Miss without teaching something this slaves even in a situation like that. After some hardcore fuck shу suddenly stopped, leaving both Alvie and this whore on the very edge of orgasm, making them beg for continuation. Miss Eve was very generous and granted both some more releases.
This day whore was so relaxed and so satisfied, she wasn't for a long-long time (if she was ever!).

PS. One more time thanks to Miss Eve for permission and Alvie for execution.

Bits and bridle

Some time ago Miss Eve gave this whore a "present". It was a set of bits and bridle (commonly used for ponies).

 (whore wearing bridle)

Whore liked it so much (don't know exactly was it because it's a bridle and whore likes ponyplay, or because it was a present from Miss). But Miss told whore, that from now on, when bits and bridle are on this whore, she should keep silent and must not talk, but still can emote. Whore understood all that and some days later had a chance to practice in keeping herself silent.
Some days later whore was wearing bits and bridle, when Alvie came (she didn't know about new rule for this whore) and started asking questions. That was so hard for whore to explain anything with emotes only. Miss laughed a lot. And whore felt herself so helpless and so vulnerable. And that was a hit of feeling of submission and desire. Whore felt something like that again, when one day after putting bits and bridle, Miss Eve said: "you are an animal, and with a bit and bridle you should not speak". It seems to be a small step to another level of degradation.

Whore's favorite blogs

After moving her diary to the public blog, whore started to look through blogs much more often. It's much easier to get new posts from different blogs, when you are a registered user of this system.
At first whore marked herself as a follower of some blogs she was fond of long ago. But after some time whore have found some more blogs, seemed to be interesting to her. And then, looking at followers of that blogs, whore opened for herself even more blogs. That's how whore is following now some blogs and is glad to see some new posts nearly every day.

(not this whore, just an old picture to illustrate this post)

In this post whore would like to tell about some of her favorites blogs (some old ones, and some pretty new for her).

Married Man's Fucktoy
This is the blog, whore was reading for a very long time. And whore is nearly admiring that woman.Fucktoy describes her way to submission and her feeling along that way. Reading this blog for quite a long time, whore see the development and the growth of a slave part of that woman. It's very interesting to see how she's becoming more and more submissive and how her limits are expanding and vanishing.



life as slave kk / My naked ass slaveAnother "old friend" of this whore is a blog of a ~50-years old woman, happy in her relations with her owner. She's another happy woman in a state of 24/7 slave fro her master, telling her readers about activities and her feelings. It's very interesting to this whore to read about it. Whore would like to learn to make her thought in post as clear, as this woman can.

Alternative Mindsets
This blog is something new to this whore. Whore found it by followers of some other blog and felt something very similar in the author with herself. Thу author of this blog likes humiliation and objectification (degradation in some way). She is fond of it in RL (!!!). And she really plays a doll and a cow (not for 24/7, but still she's trying it in RL!). And that's so exciting! Whore likes to learn that woman feelings and read her ideas about all that.

Female Orgasm Denial
The last, but not the less interesting blog is about orgasm denial. Woman orgasm denial. The thought about it is making this whore drip. And in this blog there are different posts from different people, telling about themselves, their needs, occupation and of course desires to cum. The blogger seems to give directives for how long should this or that person cum or be denied. There are some teases and some ideas for arranging a denial periods. Wonderful blog to read from the beginning up to the end.

Well, there are much more interesting blog this whore follows. Hope to have some time to write about them either.

Miss Eve's home

Today whore would like to tell you about a beautiful place, Miss Eve has taken this whore to. It's Miss Eve's home. In fact, as far, as whore knows, it's Alvie's home too, but the person who get this whore here was Miss Eve... and Miss Eve orders Alvie... so... it's a wonderful place!

First of all it consists of 2 places: a house and a skybox. You could see house in many pictures in this blog. There are 2 levels. On the first floor there are rooms and a fireplace. There are also kennels and a wooden frame for bondage. On the second floor there are mainly rooms with different devices: one room with 2 big cages (one for Alvie, on is empty, yet), one room for milking devices (like the one, you can see on posts:  New home, new treatment... and Pregnancy).

As for the skybox -- it's mainly the openair place with a huge tree. There is a house on that tree (with 2 levels either). Very beautiful  tree, this whore has to say. And there are swings, and once, when whore was not tied or locked she had wonderful time swinging on them under that tree. That was a sweet moment of happiness and some part of freedom that was so accessible... so long time ago...

(swings)

Pregnancy

For the last two days whore was online every evening to learn more about Miss Eve new house and her new destiny. Miss Eve showed and tested on this whore a new training device to make whore's breasts produce milk.

(new breasts massage device)

It's really very nice thing, as it massages very gently, but firmly. This makes this whore drip in some 10-15 minutes and Miss didn't miss the chance to test whore's chastity belt shock.(Ouch!). That made this whore thinks that Miss wants her to be a milk producer. And as whore knows, and Miss marked that several time, saying that whore can't produce milk right now as she was not pregnant, whore decided to perform some search on the way she can get pregnant in SL.
Whore has found several HUDs. One of them was a Tantra Total Woman HUD. And it seems very interesting for this whore. Whore suggested this HUD to Miss, as a variant of developing and some new level of RP-ing, but that made Miss angry. Miss Eve told this whore not to tell her what shу should do with this whore. Whore was not thinking about ordering Miss, but only wanted to show some way, some ideas... maybe whore choose the wrong form of a suggestion (whore will have to work on this and find the way to show some ideas to Miss in a correct form). At least whore was not punished for that. Miss Eve even mentioned another HUD: Mama Allpa - much cheaper one (and apparently more popular, as it has much more reviews, then the Tantra Total Woman). Maybe some day whore will try some of them...
Some time later whore returned to the discussion of the pregnancy with Miss and Miss told that her attitude to it in SL is the same as in RL, she doesn't think this whore can care about a child, she's at least not male to make this whore pregnant. Well, that's all true. Even more Miss pointed that whore's pregnancy at current level of degradation will stop whore's degradation for some time in Miss Eve's eyes.

However, there was one more thing Miss mentioned. She said: "You are not yet fully "just a thing" in my eyes, though not fully normal too", and that it stops Miss from taking a baby from this whore. But taking a baby away will be ok with a "complete thing", as things can't care of babies. So whore has to be degrade to a "just a thing" for even more degradation (as pregnancy not for a child, but for milk and all that stuff seems very humiliating for this whore).
So, the conclusion: whore has to do her best on the degradation. And whore will!

New home, new treatment...

Today whore managed to come online and meet Miss Eve. As Miss Eve is moving to a new place (with bigger amount of prims), today whore was transported to a new SIM and a new house. In fact house looks pretty same.Maybe a bit more place and a bit more decoration. After a short show up of the house made by Alvie, Miss Eve showed this whore a new device for milking and feeding. It's really one of the evil thing... but nothing can be better for an owner of a human-animal. It gives owner all opportunity and leaves no choice for a pet.

(test pumping)

After that (and whore was really horny from those sucking pumps and feeding without any variant to reject any food coming right into the throat), whore made Miss a bit angry with her, as she was a bit slow and didn't guess about Miss wishing her move downstairs. Miss said that that this whore is not smarter then an animal. Whore was listening to all that, looking to the floor and for her own shame felt her cunt start dripping. That was awful... awful shame... and awfully big arousal (whore blushes even writing about it). But that's what this whore is... a stupid horny humiliation whore (sometime it's unbelievable that this is written by me)

(dripping while humiliated)

As whore was doing her best no to make a spot on a Miss carpet, Miss went on and asked how whore felt about first try of milking and feeding. Miss also wanted to know if whore still wants to be an animal. Whore agreed for that, as that will be a great experience of true degradation for her. And whore must say now, that she hopes, that will be interesting to Miss too. And then Miss made a notice, that made whore's heart miss a beat: "I must warn you, you might get just that, and you will be treated like that". And whore asked Miss if this new treatment will be permanent for the rest of her life? But Miss hurried to leave (some RL urgent deals) and left whore's question without answer.

The rest of this day whore was thinking about it... and finally accepted that she has no really choice and just wishes to server Miss as a whore, as an animal or as anything Miss wants her to be.

Sir Alwin

Yesturday whore met with another Master, a friend of Miss Eve - Sir Alwin (whore don't know his lastname, as he didn't tell it, and whore has no names for a long-long time). Whore come online to see Miss Eve, and met Alvie (a friend of Miss Eve, see this post for more information). Whore have not see Alvie for a very long time, and wondered how she was and what was new in her life. Whore knew, that Alvie is owned by a new master and seems to be very happy about it. Whore also wanted to know what kind of training does Alvie have now, as it's always interesting to know how submission is developing in others. Alvie told only that her new Master is not only owns her in SL, but also guides her in RL (oh, that's so wonderful start for a RL sub). And then she told that all other questions whore can ask her Master personal, as he was online at that moment. Frankly speaking, whore didn't want to ask all that Alvie's master, but he came and without nearly no questions (seems that Alvie IM-ed him the situation) told about their SL and RL relationships. Whore's curiosity was satisfied. Then Sir told that he will look after both of us, until Miss Eve will not com online. Sir and Alvie made themself comfortable on the couch and whore had to be near the post on the floor.

(whore has such a fat ass in this picture...)

Sir told that Miss Eve had shown him this whore diary and stories, that were placed on the same server, where whore's diary was at first. Whore was a bit confused, but everything is made in SL by this whore belongs to the owner of this whore and Miss has all rights to do whatever she wants with that. Sir told that he knew about this whore fantasies about transforming into a cow or human cow (stories were mainly about that) and wonders if whore still wants that. As whore was not thinking about that for some period of time it was a bit hard for her to answer and she started to talk about it (that was a mistake, and now whore understands it), instead of answering. Finally whore managed to say "Yes." and Sir continued.
After that talk Sir wanted whore to show how she can serve sexually to other slaves. Whore had to play with Alvie and if Sir will not be satisfied, whore will take place of Alvie. So whore tried her best and seemed to be satisfied, but Alvie had to leave for a sleep and whore didn't even get to her cunt (but Alvie was moistening already). Hope next time whore will show all her skills... and... maybe... if someone would like... someone will play with this whore cunt. As she was not touched by anything except chastity belt for so long...

PS. Before leaving this whore, Sir asked several more questions about being a cow and it seemed that he really thinks about this whore transformation and training as a cow... Hm... that would be nice... Hope Sir will ьфma this whore a really good cow (fat, mute, with huge milky breasts, but with the same main goal in her life, as a slave would have -- to please the owner).

Washing

Today Miss Eve wants to clean her property and to try new device for water torture. Miss was really kind today and was just washing this whore and not torture whore at all.

But for next time she promised to continue this whore ass training and remind whore the feeling of a shock (shivers every time remembering about it).

As another small task for this whore to write about, Miss told to state whore's thoughts on Miss attitude toward her property. Whore thinks it's not business of hers at all. But whore will be glad if Miss will make this whore behavior like the one she thinks a good slave should have and will watch strictly after it. Whore thinks this will make her better slave and will make company of this whore more pleasant for Miss and her friends. (Isn't it topping from the bottom?!)

Well, that's all for today, hope to have something more interesting to write about.

What does submision means

"Submission is a state in which people can no longer do what they want to do because they have been brought under the control of someone else." 

Collins COBUILD Advanced Learner’s English Dictionary.

"Submission  is the action or fact of accepting or yielding to a superior force or to the will or authority of another person" 

New Oxford American Dictionary.

A very simple question very difficult to answer to.

This whore.

Dictionaries are good and whore agreed with them. But submission is always something special to every slave/sub.
For better understanding what submission is for this whore in details, submission can be separated into two parts: actions and feelings.

Actions
Submission as actions is a kind of job, where you are always ready to do your best to please owner. Sometime tasks are not the ones you want to do, and from time to time you are to do something that will be "a small step for a man, but a giant leap..." for you as a submissive. And the only thing that make this whore to do that step -- is a submission to the owner.
But submission is not only performing this or that action. Sometimes, submission is being unable to perform some action. Long time ago, whore discovered the feeling of submission from being unable to do some common things (like when you can't walk, while tired in bondage, or you feel lost in SL when owner disables your inventory for the first time). This feeling of a little helplessness is so sweet and if there is some person who has made that, whore feels deep submission to this person.
Whore have learned a lot about submission as actions/restrains and hope to show good results. But there are still some goals to achieve. It's easy not to do things, when you can't do them. Much more difficult is to stop yourself when you want something (and can do it), but owner told you not to do it. And that's a thing whore has to learn, as she can't always stop herself.

Feelings
Submission is not only actions, much more and a lot more interesting part of submission is feelings. The feeling of submission is something really strange. Whore can define this feeling as a mix of lust, excitement, desire to fall on the knees and say "Yes, Miss" (this must be the feeling of submission, i suppose), some fear and an impulse to run away. This is very complicated and wonderful feeling at the same time.
Whore is not sure, but maybe it will be better to exclude from that mix the impulse to run away? But whore doesn't know how to do it at the moment.
Talking about feelings, that are linked in this whore with submission, would be wrong not to mention humiliation. For some reason (this reason is a secrete for this whore herself) humiliation and submission were always standing near in whore's mind. When whore is humiliated, a strong wave of submission hits this whore mind, and when whore feels submissive, she is willingly and easily humiliated (and after that another wave of submission and then desire for humiliation and so on and on).

Feelings, connected with submission are not so clear for whore, as actions. And it's much harder to understand what is already done in this part and what is not. Whore had come to SL to explore the sensual/emotional part of submission (as physical part of submission can be hardly explored in SL). And the most interesting thing for this whore in her feelings -- is the feeling of humiliation. As now you can see, humiliation is tightly linked with submission in this whore's mind.That's why whore thinks exploration of humiliation will make her understand her submission better.

All together now
As for submission generally, not divided into parts, for this whore it's a faithful and honest serving to the owner and her/his interests. The major thing in this service is to accept (fully and completely) that interests of the owner are more important then yours. Everything else is only a consequence of this major thing.
And the only way to make this acceptance deeper and more complete is to train it: accept interests in different situations, in different places, in different states of mind and mood, making this acceptance a bit harder from time to time, to develop and transform the system of values of the slave/sub.

PS. Whore can't say that it's a final result of her understanding submission. And any questions can be posted as comments and whore will answer them with great pleasure (maybe some other side of submission will be discovered).