Caged

A lot of days passed after bitch was beaten and healed. A lot of RL work had to be done, and not so many time bitch has spend online. But from time to time she managed to com online and met Miss Eve to talk or maybe even some action.

The most important things were that bitch accepted the fact, that Miss Alvie had all the rights to beat her to death or what ever else she wanted. And all bitch’s inside conflict is nothing that her unreadiness to accept the complete owner right for this bitch’s SL time, thoughts, deeds, body, soul and everything else bitch has got (but not owns now).

Another important step was that Miss Eve started to lock this bitch in cages with no timer and left for unknown time with no opportunity to escape.

During discussions and plays, Miss Eve started to underline the stupidity of bitch and bitch has caught herself on a thought that she’s become more stupid and sometimes acts not as a woman, but as a complete whore (oh, bitch’s face become red from that thoughts).

So, time is going, Miss’ Eve training is having it results. That’s so exciting and so scary at the same time. Bitch is a bit frightened to loose her humanity completely and have no chance to recover to a common girl after that training… But well, that what she wanted, when she started all that (and still want to continue going this way).

Last days Miss Eve was away (gone for weekend) and she left bitch in a cage (locked, no timer, not picklock, with taken keys – no chance to escape overall). Bitch has got a task, to write her thoughts about:

1. the meaning of the collar,
2. the meaning of being imprisoned,
3. what this bitch in SL now.

Well, those questions are not so easy as they can seem at the first sight. As for collar, bitch is not mentioning it at all, while it doesn’t need an upgrade (in that cases the popup is really start annoying). Bitch can’t even think her life without collar, without it restrictions (bitch has some feelings of discomfort long ago, when names were shown to her). But even knowing about all that restrictions, bitch don’t think about them as a collar stuff (bitch knows that they are), but bitch thinks of them as a Miss power over slave, permanent reminder of her submission and her place. That’s why collar is very useful to bitch, but has no meaning as a collar itself.

Bitch is now locked all the time, while unused by Miss or some of her friends. And bitch is happy about it. Bitch has now no problems to decide where to go and what to do. Bitch has no seduction to play, or to ask to play with others (when people see bitch in the cage, locked and no chance to be freed they quickly loose interest to her and walk by, making bitch understand her complete uselessness). But sitting in the cage has it’s bad sides too. As this bitch is now denied to orgasm (nearly all the time), she’s permanently horny and dripping nearly all the time (oh, and you can imaging  if juices are dripping outside, what is going on inside this bitch (in her pussy and in her soul). And sometime bitch feels sad being ignored and can’t even talk to some people 9as they are standing far, and bitch can only whisper and can’t IM to unknown persons). But that’s all make this bitch remember, what she’s now and where’s her place to be at. And bitch must thanks Miss Eve for that sincerely. Thank you Miss!

As for herself, bitch can’t say exactly how does she feels herself. Well, there is time, when bitch is normally accepts everything Miss is doing to her and understands her feelings and reasons for everyone attitude. And all that was desired by bitch for so long time… and now bitch has got it with all it’s “bad”s and “good”s. But from time to time, bitch is falling into some strange state of seeing what she has done to herself, understanding how deep has she fell. Understanding that there is not so much of human is left in her... and she’s not that slave, who once entered  SL RLV world… and absolutely not that girl, who logged into SL once.

There is another fact about this bitch, that Miss might know, but bitch thinks that it must be written down. Bitch started to notice, that sometimes she wants to do things she’d never wanted and never would do before training starts. One of the examples is that she asked Miss to whip bitch, instead of Miss Alive… During bitch’s imprisonment bitch wanted to beg people going by to fuck her and give her some sexual treatment. Somehow bitch stopped herself, but that was some really strange desires. And their appearance in bitch head, make her feel even more horny, then she was before. Bitch is not sure what it is and is it good or bad, and would like offer Miss Eve to decide if she needs to develop those thoughts in her property (for some goal or just for Miss’s fun).

One more interesting thing, bitch has noticed during the last days. One day, bitch was watching a movie, and there was a scene (not the main one and rather short) where some girls, handcuffed in a dirty room were shown, they were used there sexually by different guys. And bitch placed herself there immediately. That was so hot and so thrilling, that bitch soon started to worry, if she’ll get too horny from all that. Everything was fine, but bitch thought about some kind of sexual renting and such kind of things… if Miss wants it.

One more things, bitch was thinking about and didn’t mention in this diary. Bitch thought about body transformation play some days ago. And told about it to Miss Eve. Bitch can give a copy of her shape to Miss Eve and Miss can transform it how she thinks this bitch will look better, and give it back and force bitch to wear… This will be another small step for complete submission and may be will please Miss, making her feel one more side of ownership.