The last talk

Today, Miss Eve told her decision on her property fate.
But to start from the beginning, it must be said that whore offered Miss Eve to broaden her domination to some parts of whore RL too (doesn't it seem very natural?). Whore wrote a document, terms parts of RL, where Miss Eve has all rights to guide whore, and some parts, that can be called limits and hard limits.
Miss Eve agreed to think about it and vanishes for some period of time (RL deals, you know). Whore was busy with RL for some time too.
Finally the talk took place.

To make story short, whore has to say that Miss Eve thought a lot and taking in consideration some RL aspect of whore's life (changing RL life, and it's changing with the help of Miss Eve too), Miss decided to let whore free in RL. Even more, Miss Eve made a decision to let whore free in SL too.

So, from now on, this whore is not a property of Miss Eve any more (*sighs and sobs*) and is absolutely free SL person.
That's it. That's the end of this beautiful story of SL degradation.
At list for this time.

I hope, after some rehabilitation time I will continue my way toward deep humiliation, as I feel a deep need in it. Maybe I'll find some owner, who's interested in such an experience. Maybe it will be some short stories about different adventures. Who knows?!

However, I hope this blog will not die.

PS. If some of readers has any ideas, offers or something -- you are welcome to leave your contacts in comments -- I'll contact you in SL.

Emotional mix

Today was a very peculiar day (night, to be precise).
Whore had a free day in RL and spent a lot of time reading different blogs, forums about all BDSM aspects. In the evening Miss could came online to see her property. Miss wanted to talk to whore and asked her different question, whore told Miss her SL story (from the very beginning): about her unowned period, about some experience with banishment, and all whore's owners.
After that Miss lead whore back to a playroom. Whore was alone at that moment in RL and asked if she can wear RL clips or even play with herself (that was the first time whore asked permission for playing in RL). Miss was surprised (whore was surprised with her own question too). Miss told whore to put clips and pass course 2 times in a row before it.Whore passed, not for the first attempt, but has passed.

(new course picture)

Miss granted whore a permission to play with herself, but demanded to describe what was going on in RL. Whore offered Miss to guide her in playing and Miss agreed.
Miss started slowly and didn't want to be quick, however whore was already horny. Miss leaded whore telling how and where she must touch herself, how hard and so on. Whore tried to react as quickly, as she could. Miss grins doing it and put remarks like: "It suits you whore" from time to time. That made whore blushing, but very-very horny(RL). Finally whore was rubbing herself fiercely, moaning out loud and humping on her chair. For some RL reasons, (whore limits) Miss can't permit whore to have an orgasm (and whore can't grant it to herself too), that's why whore had to stop herself at the edge.Whore was shaking from desire and lust. Whore wants only one thing -- more stimulation. But Miss Eve told to stop and whore couldn't disobey.
All that was so unexpected, strange, humiliating and at the same time excited and delightful. Miss told whore to pass the course one more time and whore did it reeling from side to side(SL) with shaking hands on the mouse(RL). But whore made it from the first attempt. After that whore begged for some more touchings, but Miss denied and ordered whore not to play with herself one more hour. That was hard for whore and so wise for Miss, as the first 10-50 minutes from the edge are filled with the desire most of all.
After that Miss talked to whore for some more time and discussed what had happened. Figured out, everyone enjoyed the "incident". And that made whore hope for continuation some day.

After logging out from SL, whore thought a lot about what had happened. And how it can effect her RL. Finally whore concluded, that it has positive sides:

1. Whore should be guided and limited in playing with herself in RL and now Miss can do it, if she'd like to, of course.
2. Whore deals better with orders from some other people, then with selfmade decisions and ordered by Miss whore can be more often denied, then before.
3. Now Miss can influence not only whore's avatar in SL, but also RL person and even (oh, God!) make some RL punishments for RL and SL faults (for making whore better property in SL and better submissive in RL).
4. Miss, knowing now much more about whore, didn't move away from whore and seemed even liked what is going on.
5. Miss has more opportunities and directions to develop her... mm... relations with whore.

But there are some negative sides too:

1. Whore has some moral responsibilities in RL and should be very careful not to brake or make harm to them.
2. Whore should now be very careful, as mixing RL and SL can lead to something bad (but can be a way to something very good too!!!)

And now, whore has a real mix of emotions inside: desire to continue and see what will this lead to, fear from unknown and unexpected (but really wanted) RL power exchange.

New goals, old ways

Whore was not writing much for the last several weeks.
There were holidays and a lot of thing to do before and after them.
Miss Eve seems to have nearly the same and whore had not seen Miss for a long time (just could exchange offline messages and rarely chat online with out any time for full actions)

And at last, she managed to meet her property. Whore was very glad. Main news were: an addition to the whore's training course (sorry, have no picture at a moment), and that Miss has changed her mind about her property degradation.

Miss told that, degradation was not really her kind of things, but she doesn't refuse the ownership, but wants to treat her whore another way. What way? Well, Miss told (as whore could understand) more traditional way for slaves and will try to make this whore suitable for being proud with. Miss said that some day (not a close future) she will go out with her property back to the public (whore was not in public SIMs for several months already).

However, Miss mentioned, that whore's place will be at the floor and not an inch higher.

After all that, whore was left alone and had some time to think about all those news.
Whore really wants Miss Eve to be proud of her property and to be better, but has no idea how to do it. That's why whore thought about it and here's the list of things whore thinks she can (and maybe must?) to improve:

1. Do her best to complete every Miss' order.
2. Test and (hope) prove (practically) whore's devotion and faithfulness to Miss Eve.
3. Make less writing and grammar mistakes.
4. Learn to answer short and clear
5. Learn not to make a lot of talking here and there (be quiet, until is asked directly)
6. Learn to feel her place and state every second of being near Miss and even without her.
7. Develop submission in any kind and sense Miss wants whore to do it.

New point of view

Last day whore came online for some small amount of time and felt an urge to pass through the dog-training course. Whore just can't resist and spent next half an hour running over and over the logs, jumping over walls and passing through tube and tumbler. Whore found out some specific things about her movements (whore can move only on all four of her laps) and behavior of some parts of the course. Whore found out the action made by a SPACE button while movements. Whore was training overall (with no order, with no conscious reason). When time was over, whore wen to her kennel and understood she really likes what she were doing and she was doing it to perform better before Miss next time.

Some days after the "next time" came. Miss Eve called Alvie to see whore at passing the course. And whore failed. For some unknown reason whore felt very nervous and unsure and felt from the log between two high object at first, and then missed a the last log (leading to the ground). Whore felt awful, nearly crying. As whore was in ML whore didn't look up at Miss Eve or Alvie... Miss was not satisfied with whore's performance too, but gave whore another chance and on the third time whore passed the course completely without mistakes. That makes whore a bit more happier. Whore even afford herself to look up at Miss Eve and Alvie.Whore saw a picture like this (see below):

(whore's new point of view)

And whore understood how right her position was. Whore feels no right to look at others otherwise, then upward. The feeling was intensified by the fact, that Miss Eve and Alvie were discussing something about this whore, without not even mentioning this whore presence. Like talking about some animal or even an object (and that's again very near to the reality for now).
Oh, it's so had to describe the mix of feelings from that moment. Here's just some of them:

• joy and happiness from completing the course, completing Miss order, being near Miss
• humiliation from being lowed to the ground and being muted, and restricted to ML,
• arouse from being humiliated and having nothing to do with that,
• even more aroused from being aroused from such awful and shameful things,
• submission to any decision of Miss Eve and 
• readiness to complete any Miss Eve order

Alvie has something else to do and leave very quick after that. Miss Eve lead this whore to a skybox (a fireplace) and had a talk with her. Yes, Miss Eve removed bits and bridle (with chat restrictions) and asked several questions. One of them was how whore feels about getting a OC Collar back. And whore felt really nothing about that and answered just common words about submitting to any Miss decisions. That was a mistake, as Miss wanted to get a direct answer about whore feeling. And after some tips from Miss, whore finally answered: "Whore feels ready for that, Miss". That was the answer Miss liked, but as it was said not at once, Miss decided to lock this whore into the cage for a 30 minutes, to have whore think about her style of answering (yes, it's a huge problem, as this whore can't answer short and direct,  always writing a lot about all questions aspects and some aspect laying close to the subject). Well, maybe it's just another story, and whore will write about it some time later...

Pet's feelings

Today whore finally met her owner again online (for some RL reasons whore was not online for more then a week). Whore was very-very glad, in spite of she can't say how glad she was, because of bits and bridle and chat restrictions. But hope Miss understood everything by a wide whore's smile.
Miss showed a new training course for her pet (this whore) and ordered to go through it. Unfortunately whore didn't notice the start mark and tried to pass it from the finish. After several remarks from Miss whore felt herself so silly (just like a stupid little puppy *blushes*). At last whore saw the green mark of the beginning and passed through it.
The course consists of a jumping area, climbing log and a log at some height, a pipe, a tumbler (where you can go only over the green spinning line) with a water bath under it, a log to come down to the ground level. You can see it all at a picture right below.

(a training ground for a dog-whore)

But whore must spoil before spin and failed the first pass completely: too long jumps and a fall down from tumbler. Miss demanded another try and that time whore completed the path. After landing to the finish spot, whore came to Miss with the overflowing feeling of happiness from completing Miss command. Whore tried to express it some way, but could only smile happily, listening Miss telling whore was a good pet. The only thin whore thought at that moment was th thought that she has made Miss Eve happy. And that thought was filling whore's soul with pleasure and joy. So whore looked upward at Miss with a happy smile on her face.

Right at that moment Miss Eve said: "I want you to think about something Whore. Look at how you are sitting here, bit and bridle, cuffs on, chasted.Over all, leashed to an owner, nothing more then an animal, not even with behavior. I tell you to do or not to do something, you obey. I want to know how this feels for you whore.". Whore had no chance to answer Miss at that moment (as pet was gagged by bits and bridle). And now whore can answer Miss: "Wonderful!". Whore has no idea how it works, but it works for her and that's absolutely clear. For some reason understanding the fact of all restrictions, total power exchange, absolute control and complete dependence makes this whore want to say something, but not anything particular, want to go somewhere, but nowhere particular and as a result -- whore stands still and silent. And the only thing, that can get whore out of that state is an order of her owner.
This is a mysterious feeling for whore, as she can't understand it, can't analyze it, but can watch it again and again inside her mind (in RL!!!!). And that's whore is thankful Miss Eve for.

PS. Maybe some day whore will find out the source and mechanism of that feeling, but as for now, whore will just feel it and be happy with it. Thank you again, Miss Eve for this wonderful emotional gift.

Half birthday

Sorry for not posting for some period -- a lot of things to get care of in "out of internet life". But some days later Miss asked if this whore can be online today (08/11/2010), as it will be some special date. And whore answered "yes, Miss" (what else she can afford to answer?).
Whore wondered what will be special on that day... there were several ideas:

1. Miss will have some special treat for this whore (maybe including some other people to come to some time)
2. It will be some special date, like Miss birthday, Whore's birthday (is it???) or something like that

Well, whore was partly right in every idea.

When Miss came online to this whore, She told that right a half year ago Miss met this whore and they get acquainted. So it's a kind of birthday (by half) of their SL relations. Well, that's absolutely true (whore could check it in her blog) and everyone can read about it in the post "Training with Miss Eve Wildmist".
After that day a lot of things have happened. And finally, whore is here, at a place she's now. But this post is not about whore's place in SL. This post is about some gifts Miss favorably gave this whore.

The first thing whore was given -- was a new set of collar and cuffs from dominatech (it's called iControl). Whore is only learning what it is to wear it, and at first it seemed not so comfortable as the OC Collar (especially because of chat commands absence), but hope it's more comfortable for Miss to use it, cause only this matters.
The most impressing thing about this collar was the paragraph from it's manual about total control.  It says, that in a special mode of owning, slave can be sold or just given to any other person, having no chance to prevent this (hope Miss will not use it, but whore understands, she has full right for that at any time and without any explanations for this whore). Whore shivered, reading that... and after Miss permission, turn that mode on.

Another gift, Miss Eve gave her whore that day, was a new chastity belt from T&T (Do they have a site to give a link to?). Whore tried a demo version of it later and thinks it's a powerful device, but too expensive for it's functions (most of functions are nearly the same, any collar has). But however, no one can choose gifts, and no chance for a slave to go against the will of an owner.

(whore in her new equipment, listening to Miss Eve)

From this day  whore wears all that (and only that) permanently and very thankful to Miss for her attention, attitude and training. And now whore has some new things to learn how to operate.

Wonderful story...

This day was a busy Monday and whore has to work a lot. Whore decided to let Miss know, that whore will absent online today and logged to SL. For some strange coincidence, Miss was online just at near the place whore came. Whore explained that she's busy with some RL work, but can't stop herself from chatting with Miss working meanwhile.
It's very important for relations (and D/s relations are relations too) to have opportunity and a wish for communication. Whore highly appreciates Miss spending her time, talking to this whore, explaining or asking something. This day it was just a chat, but in some part of it whore was describing what she likes in submission and remembered a story, that she has read several years ago. One part of that story makes this whore's mind blow. Whore told in her own words what was that about and then tried to find this story. At first whore has no success, as she did not remember the names of the characters and any other details. But then whore went to the same site, she had found that story for the first time of her life and found it there. The story was there, but was translated from the English to whore's native language. But knowing the names, whore found it rather quickly.
And now whore can happily share this story with all readers of this blog. Story is called "Loyal Daughter" by cowgirl. Hope you will like the reading.

PS. Whore considers the last page the most powerful and can't read it without getting aroused, horny and submissive.

Long-waited present

Today was a wonderful evening for this whore.Alvie was a bit free and had a chance to take this whore's chastity off. Oh! What a feeling... whore was not taking that belt for some months already. Whore wishes everyone to try something like that... at least once... just to know what it is.
Some time ago Alvie was surprised with this whore, having 99 of recovery on the Sensations HUD. Whore has got used to that state, having nearly every touch make her horny and easily dripping from even a short play. So today Alvie took whore's chastity off to give whore a release, so long-waited and so many times begged for release.
There's a wonderful wooden frame at Miss's house, that can be used as a solo bondage device, as a  posing device, and as a two or three people sex device. Alvie and this whore know this device quite enough, as some we both were used on it in some other SIMs. Once Alvie started touching this whore, whore felt out into the state of desiring more and more, unstopping pleasure, riding on waves of orgasms. From some moment whore started to answer Alvie, touching her and making Alvie to orgasm too. It was a loud action of passion and love.
We were so concentrated on pleasure, that didn't mention Miss Eve's appearance. And even after we did, we can hardly stop from touching each other, and kept kissing .

(whore and Alvie can't stop kissing and touching each other, even, when Miss Eve looks at them)

But after a bit looking at slaves playing, Miss decided to take part and fucked Alvie with her strapon, and whore had to sit under them, catching juices, dripping from Alvie's hot pleasure hole. But Miss Eve would not be a real Miss without teaching something this slaves even in a situation like that. After some hardcore fuck shу suddenly stopped, leaving both Alvie and this whore on the very edge of orgasm, making them beg for continuation. Miss Eve was very generous and granted both some more releases.
This day whore was so relaxed and so satisfied, she wasn't for a long-long time (if she was ever!).

PS. One more time thanks to Miss Eve for permission and Alvie for execution.

Miss Eve's home

Today whore would like to tell you about a beautiful place, Miss Eve has taken this whore to. It's Miss Eve's home. In fact, as far, as whore knows, it's Alvie's home too, but the person who get this whore here was Miss Eve... and Miss Eve orders Alvie... so... it's a wonderful place!

First of all it consists of 2 places: a house and a skybox. You could see house in many pictures in this blog. There are 2 levels. On the first floor there are rooms and a fireplace. There are also kennels and a wooden frame for bondage. On the second floor there are mainly rooms with different devices: one room with 2 big cages (one for Alvie, on is empty, yet), one room for milking devices (like the one, you can see on posts:  New home, new treatment... and Pregnancy).

As for the skybox -- it's mainly the openair place with a huge tree. There is a house on that tree (with 2 levels either). Very beautiful  tree, this whore has to say. And there are swings, and once, when whore was not tied or locked she had wonderful time swinging on them under that tree. That was a sweet moment of happiness and some part of freedom that was so accessible... so long time ago...

(swings)

Pregnancy

For the last two days whore was online every evening to learn more about Miss Eve new house and her new destiny. Miss Eve showed and tested on this whore a new training device to make whore's breasts produce milk.

(new breasts massage device)

It's really very nice thing, as it massages very gently, but firmly. This makes this whore drip in some 10-15 minutes and Miss didn't miss the chance to test whore's chastity belt shock.(Ouch!). That made this whore thinks that Miss wants her to be a milk producer. And as whore knows, and Miss marked that several time, saying that whore can't produce milk right now as she was not pregnant, whore decided to perform some search on the way she can get pregnant in SL.
Whore has found several HUDs. One of them was a Tantra Total Woman HUD. And it seems very interesting for this whore. Whore suggested this HUD to Miss, as a variant of developing and some new level of RP-ing, but that made Miss angry. Miss Eve told this whore not to tell her what shу should do with this whore. Whore was not thinking about ordering Miss, but only wanted to show some way, some ideas... maybe whore choose the wrong form of a suggestion (whore will have to work on this and find the way to show some ideas to Miss in a correct form). At least whore was not punished for that. Miss Eve even mentioned another HUD: Mama Allpa - much cheaper one (and apparently more popular, as it has much more reviews, then the Tantra Total Woman). Maybe some day whore will try some of them...
Some time later whore returned to the discussion of the pregnancy with Miss and Miss told that her attitude to it in SL is the same as in RL, she doesn't think this whore can care about a child, she's at least not male to make this whore pregnant. Well, that's all true. Even more Miss pointed that whore's pregnancy at current level of degradation will stop whore's degradation for some time in Miss Eve's eyes.

However, there was one more thing Miss mentioned. She said: "You are not yet fully "just a thing" in my eyes, though not fully normal too", and that it stops Miss from taking a baby from this whore. But taking a baby away will be ok with a "complete thing", as things can't care of babies. So whore has to be degrade to a "just a thing" for even more degradation (as pregnancy not for a child, but for milk and all that stuff seems very humiliating for this whore).
So, the conclusion: whore has to do her best on the degradation. And whore will!

Slave training continues

For some RL reasons this slut can’t stay online for a long time today. But she had finally got some hours to get online and, thank God, Miss Eve was online too. Mss Eve seemed to be glad to see this slut online and readily continued this slave training.

Miss Eve liked this slave diary, and, as she said, she’d found something interesting in it and will use some ideas from it… There were really a lot of ideas in it… This slave can only wonder what ideas Miss liked… Soon this slave will know…

Miss met this slut at Enslaved RLV and this slut started to show Miss her outfits and discuss them with her. During their conversation, some stranger started to lock everyone into the cages… and this slave was locked for some time, but Miss got this slave out rather quickly and after that we left that place…

Miss Eve showed this slut a new place with different medical equipment… rather evil ones. Unfortunately it was not sensations compatible… so electro shocks and candle wax drops were not hurting too much. And this slave wanted to show Miss some devices with sensations HUD. But this slave was nearly out of time and only could find the place, where devices are. There, as this slave had to leave soon, Miss put her into the cage and set it timer for 1 hour RL… and now this slave is sitting on the floor of that glass cage, naked for any strangers passing by, unable to IM, with pacifier… feeling her vulnerability and humiliation. And for some strange reason this slut likes it… what a shame…

Training with Eve Wildmist

After several days working on humiliation plan, this slave is back to her diary and her adventures in SL. This slave send Miss Susy her diary, but she seems to have some problems with readying RTF files… soon this slave will know for sure.

And today this slave adventures started at Enslaved Extreme RLV. Slave has met a person there, Miss Eve Wildmist. She agreed to train this slut a bit… and after that this slut was posed on some evil device and was tortured for a half an hour or so… Miss slapped her with paddle and hand, had teased slave with eating her pussy, fist slave and all that was changing from one to another and back. This slave was begging to stop and to allow her to cum at the end. During all actions people were coming along, looking at this slut humiliatingly crying and begging Miss.

One of persons wanted to take part and Miss agreed… and this slave had no choice, but even more, she desired that cock in her mouth… Cock was put in her ass, during Miss was fisting her pussy. That was so arousing, humiliating and painful. And the only thing kept slave from orgasm was the chastity belt. After slaves holes were done Miss slapped slave several time and freed her from the device.

Miss wanted to train slave for deepthroat, but training device seemed to be a bit huge for slave and dildo was not going deep to slave’s mouth. Miss Eve said she liked this slut, and slut mentioned that she’d be glad to have more training with Miss Eve. It was settled down, that slave will ask Miss Susy a permission to add Miss Eve as a second owner for a period of training.

Before leaving, Miss Eve played an evil joke to this slave. She has found a cage outdoor, locked this slave in it, remove all slave’s clothes to be exposed to everyone, blocked inventory and other stuff (including IM) and put on slave her blindfold. This slave has never feel so helpless. This slave knew, timer was set to 30 minutes, but that were veeeery long 30 minutes. This slave has a radar HUD and saw someone was not so far from her… she begged to help her, but that person (and as slave has no names, she can’t know who was that) keep silent. When 30 minutes passed, slave was not completely free, as blindfold timer was set to 40 minutes and slave had to wait for 10 minutes more to see the cage and open it’s door. Even thinking of it, makes this slave horny.

In the conclusion of this slave SL day she talked to Dagmar Grau, who wanted to be a human cow. This slave thinks about trying to train her for a good cow, to lear more about cow-play to ask Miss to play this kind of “game” with this slave. Dagmar has very nice breasts from “eboobs”. This slave will look for some kind of them before she can be trained as cow too.

As for now, Dagmar has a task to right at least 250 word essay on what a good cow should do, and what it shouldn’t. Hope it will be interesting to read.