Things I like in the SL

As a training of this girl starts, Mistress Helen Schapira show her as a powerful and demanding person. She underlines that this girl is not only a pony, but a slave, that matters. And as a slave, this girl must behave and be treated certain way.
In spite of this girls begging Mistress disabled her IMs (I was having a conversation with a person, who seems to be a prof. in humiliation). Mistress banned this girl sex activity in SL, and you know it always was hard for me*winks*.
Finally, Mistress gave her slave a task to make a list of things slave likes the most in SL. She mentioned, that those things she will take away from me as a sign of my enslavement or as a punishment, if she will want to do so.
I asked Mistress about a deadline of this task, and she told, that it must be ready, as soon, as she'll see me. That's why I have to avoid SL, until this task is done. And that's by it's own is a kind of punishment :-)

I broke the list to 3 groups:
SL only related things:
- I like sitting, listening to the group chats, reading profiles. It can be interesting and you can meet interesting people there for chat or even some actions.
- I like chatting with people on different kink topics.
- I like meeting people and have some RP or action play (not with everyone, but there are some realy good RPs)
- I'm fond of looking to profiles, groups descriptions, etc., searching for some new SIMs, where I'v never been to.
- I like to visit new SIMs, explore them, maybe act a bit in them. After that I add them to my Favs., or leave them and forget about them. When there are no new SIMs to visit, I revisit my favorites, starting from the most old ones.

Semi RL
- I like to use SL as a kind of a break while i work, it makes my mind a bit clear from working thoughts and problems

RL
- SL makes me sexually excited often... and periodically i can't stand from touching myself in RL... *blushes* and I like it in SL anyway.

Ok, I think that's all. Now I'm ready to come back online and see Mistress Helen Schapira :-)

Task done

Today whore had finally complete Miss Eve task, that was given to her at 23/10/2010. 
Whore had build a table, where a person can be locked, stuffed it with a script, working exact Miss Eve told. And today whore had finished a story, that includes some BDSM actions with an object like that.
Frankly speaking whore had planned much longer story with a bit longer plot, but finish it will be too long. That's why whore posts today the first part of it. Hope you will all like it. 
Please, feel free to comment (whore will try to correct spelling and all other mistakes in it).


Not to make a mess in this blog, whore has made a separate page for this story. The story is called "Jane"

Building, scripting and imagine

Today whore has got a new task from Miss Eve. The task is to build some object, so that a person can be placed there (Miss gave a poseball to be placed in the object) and looked like being in shackles. Then whore must make a script of changing this object color into black by clicking on it (if this whore is not far then 5m from the object, regardless how far the clicker is). And finally, whore has to write a fiction story, containing usage of this object.
For that reasons Miss Eve gave whore permission to build in some part of her house and make her inventory accessible.

 (a pose of a poseball whore was given)

First of all, whore started to think about an object, that she will build. Whore couldn't found any suitable pictures of shackle, where a person was sitting. So whore tried to think about it herself. Main ideas for it are:

1. А cage, like a round cage for a bird with bars by perimeter. So person will be locked by ankle and maybe neck.
2. Another one (whore likes more) is some kind of human furniture. For example a table with a person locked inside, so there's only head above the top. So another person sitting at that table can communicate... or use locked person any other way. Something like in this post. A variant of this direction -- is a bed, where a face of a locked slave can be used as one of the posts, or a pillow or something.
3. The third idea -- is a kind of a human-toilet or a face-chair. It can be achieved with rotating the sitball and cover legs with some decoration.

As for scripting, whore will read manuals and look at her previous results, as far as whore remembers, script will not be very complicated (maybe changing color of multiPrimed object can be a bit tricky, but not too hard).

The last part of the task -- is the story. Whore has some ideas, but that it depends on the object that will be finally build.

What does submision means

"Submission is a state in which people can no longer do what they want to do because they have been brought under the control of someone else." 

Collins COBUILD Advanced Learner’s English Dictionary.

"Submission  is the action or fact of accepting or yielding to a superior force or to the will or authority of another person" 

New Oxford American Dictionary.

A very simple question very difficult to answer to.

This whore.

Dictionaries are good and whore agreed with them. But submission is always something special to every slave/sub.
For better understanding what submission is for this whore in details, submission can be separated into two parts: actions and feelings.

Actions
Submission as actions is a kind of job, where you are always ready to do your best to please owner. Sometime tasks are not the ones you want to do, and from time to time you are to do something that will be "a small step for a man, but a giant leap..." for you as a submissive. And the only thing that make this whore to do that step -- is a submission to the owner.
But submission is not only performing this or that action. Sometimes, submission is being unable to perform some action. Long time ago, whore discovered the feeling of submission from being unable to do some common things (like when you can't walk, while tired in bondage, or you feel lost in SL when owner disables your inventory for the first time). This feeling of a little helplessness is so sweet and if there is some person who has made that, whore feels deep submission to this person.
Whore have learned a lot about submission as actions/restrains and hope to show good results. But there are still some goals to achieve. It's easy not to do things, when you can't do them. Much more difficult is to stop yourself when you want something (and can do it), but owner told you not to do it. And that's a thing whore has to learn, as she can't always stop herself.

Feelings
Submission is not only actions, much more and a lot more interesting part of submission is feelings. The feeling of submission is something really strange. Whore can define this feeling as a mix of lust, excitement, desire to fall on the knees and say "Yes, Miss" (this must be the feeling of submission, i suppose), some fear and an impulse to run away. This is very complicated and wonderful feeling at the same time.
Whore is not sure, but maybe it will be better to exclude from that mix the impulse to run away? But whore doesn't know how to do it at the moment.
Talking about feelings, that are linked in this whore with submission, would be wrong not to mention humiliation. For some reason (this reason is a secrete for this whore herself) humiliation and submission were always standing near in whore's mind. When whore is humiliated, a strong wave of submission hits this whore mind, and when whore feels submissive, she is willingly and easily humiliated (and after that another wave of submission and then desire for humiliation and so on and on).

Feelings, connected with submission are not so clear for whore, as actions. And it's much harder to understand what is already done in this part and what is not. Whore had come to SL to explore the sensual/emotional part of submission (as physical part of submission can be hardly explored in SL). And the most interesting thing for this whore in her feelings -- is the feeling of humiliation. As now you can see, humiliation is tightly linked with submission in this whore's mind.That's why whore thinks exploration of humiliation will make her understand her submission better.

All together now
As for submission generally, not divided into parts, for this whore it's a faithful and honest serving to the owner and her/his interests. The major thing in this service is to accept (fully and completely) that interests of the owner are more important then yours. Everything else is only a consequence of this major thing.
And the only way to make this acceptance deeper and more complete is to train it: accept interests in different situations, in different places, in different states of mind and mood, making this acceptance a bit harder from time to time, to develop and transform the system of values of the slave/sub.

PS. Whore can't say that it's a final result of her understanding submission. And any questions can be posted as comments and whore will answer them with great pleasure (maybe some other side of submission will be discovered).

Public usage starts

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This slut’s likes and dislike (ordered by Miss Eve)

Today, as this slut is sitting in the cage, she’s thinking about things she likes and dislikes (Miss Eve told her to do it).

This slut will start with something really hard – things she doesn’t like:

1. This slave never liked some silly RPs, when some guy is fucking monotonous poor girl, with no emotions or mental link during the process.
2. This slave doesn’t like some stupidity and monotony.
3. This slave can’t understand also, when some person looses his/her temper on some absolutely unknown person (this slave tries to solve RL problems in RL).

As for thins this slave likes – there are many of them:

1. Restrains – this slut is just getting wet, if restrains are applied to her. And more restrains are applied, more hot this slut is getting… and if everything is done along with some role playing, it can make get this slut to the edge of orgasm.
2. Humiliation and rough play is also make this slut feel her place and be more submissive.

And there is one more thing this slut has to add to things she likes. When slave knows that some person can do anything to her and doesn’t know what this person will do… that makes this slave nervous and horny. And that’s add points to everything is done with this slave.

Degradation plan

Today this girl was not too much online today, but have some chat with Miss and offered Miss to think and write down her ideas on humiliation. After that she was thinking a lot about it and decided to compile a plan of her degradation. There would be several stages (states) with their signs to check if a state was properly set in this slave. Also this girl would like to think of different tasks, orders, actions to move her to the next, more humiliating state. That would be not an easy work, but this girl hope it’ll worth the result.

Stage: a girl

            Description: common girl, wanted to be trained and humiliated

            Signs: everything is ok, no restrictions at all

Stage: a sub/slave

Description: collared sub/slave, ready to submit and start training and learning toward humiliation slur.

Signs:

·        Clothes: anything permitted and approved by Miss.

·        Poses: any polite pose Miss approved.

·        Private: wherever slave wants, except periods Miss wants slave to be somewhere else.

·        RLV restrictions: no restrictions on regular basis, but some for punishments and training.

·        Speech mode: polite speech always thankful to Miss and other people.

·        Chastity: none.

·        Addressing to slave: “i”, “me”, “this slave” (anything with a low letter).

Common activities:

·        Plain orders from Miss. Getting to know slave’s nature better.

·        Develop discipline, trust and submission.

·        Some written forms of reporting of different actions and thoughts.

·        Slave can be leashed in public.

·        Slave can be punished in public and private.

Developing activities:

The main goal on this stage is to develop a link in a slave mind between humiliation and pleasure. So, every act of humiliation must be accompanied by some pleasure: sex, petting, any other reward.

·        Miss can call a slave a whore, bitch and slut, while giving her some contestations.

·        Make slave horny and then tell her to do some strange, wired things (better in public), wear some strange clothes and devices.

·        Do some tease and denial sessions and make slave beg for orgasm, saying different things, selfhumiliating. And if selfhumiliating is done properly – reward this slave, and punish otherwise.

Stage: a humiliation slave

Description: slave involved in humiliation play and getting some pleasure from it.

Signs:

·        Clothes: anything permitted and approved by Miss (but more open, then normal).

·        Poses: opened for a view of Miss.

·        Private: can use private areas to change dress and have sex until told otherwise.

·        RLV restrictions: no far touch, no fly, no minimap, no shout,  permanent,  and anything else for some times.

·        Speech mode: polite, thankful speech, asking for permission to start conversation.

·        Chastity: must be in chastity all the time, to prevent having sex with no permission. Slave can have orgasms with Miss permission.

·        Addressing to slave: “this girl”, “this slave”, “this slut”.

Common activities:

·        Tease and denial games with permissions to cum after some time (not always)

·        Making slave beg for orgasms using self humiliation.

·        Call slave a slut, whore from time to time.

·        Underline in conversations slave’s positive attitude to humiliation. Slave must get used to the thought that she likes humiliation and start confirming it automatically.

Developing activities:

As a slave’s link between humiliation and pleasure growing stronger, more humiliation can be applied. Slave now must be oriented to act more as a slut. This will be more natural, as slave will be more often denied orgasm and will feel herself more horny.

·        Slave must learn to be useful sexually and develop her sexual skills in making pleasure to other people: petting, oral, vaginal and anal sex must be involved with strict control over slave’s orgasms.

·        Slave has to develop her pussy and anal to be ready for any use.

·        Slave can be involved in any play with Miss to understand what she must do in it and perform the best way to pleasure playmates.

·        At some point some semi-public actions can be started: slave can be used by some people under her Miss control or along with Miss.

Stage: a humiliation slut

Description: slave strongly involved in humiliation, getting pleasure from it, wanting have more sexual activity, ready to go further into humiliation to get more sexual pleasure.

Signs:

·        Clothes: things permitted by Miss only, very opened, partly naked, with some devices visible for others.

·        Poses: opened for a view of Miss and others, horny stands and movements.

·        Private: can use private areas to change dress, rarely can have sex in private places.

·        RLV restrictions: no far touch, no fly, no minimap, no shout, no norm (whisper only), no inventory, no names, no map, clothes locked permanent, and anything else for some times.

·        Speech mode: polite, thankful speech, only when asked or have some special task or order.

·        Chastity: Full time chastity with orgasms from time to time (once in a 4-7 days). Only Miss permitted orgasms.

·        Addressing to slave: “this slave”, “this slut”, “whore”, “this bitch”.

Common activities:

·        Tease and denial games with devices, maybe some devices constantly in, to make slave aroused all the time (with no orgasms!), begging for relief.

·        Calling this slave different rude names in private conversations

·        Give a permission to orgasm in public any time slave wants, but when there are not less then 3 persons except her hearing slave’s moans (this will help slave to get used to public actions and motivate her to have public sex more often)

·        Show slave in public places with bare red ass or swollen tits, showing everyone what a slut this slave is (can be locked in some public place to be shown).

Developing activities:

At this stage slave must develop herself in a complete slut (whore), wet and dipping, ready for anything to have permission for orgasm (but getting this permission more and more seldom). The most important thing in this period is to make slave self accept herself as a slut, make her think of herself as a slut and nothing more.

·        Give permission to orgasm more and more seldom (once per 1-2 weeks)

·        Set conditions for orgasm more and more humiliating: do it only in public, be complete naked, have been fucked by at least 2 persons as the same time before orgasm, etc.

·        Make slave to cum while whipping and other painful actions.

·        Urge slave to call herself a slut, whore, bitch, but not a slave.

·        Find some evidences that slave is a whore and slut and nothing more.

·        Address and use slave as a whore, sex toy, accentuate that she’s not suitable for anything else.

·        Make slave to beg for sex to strangers (make sex with stranger a condition for orgasm: ask if slave wants an orgasm, then give permission to have orgasm with some person, if he would not be against and pleased by slave, and so on…)

·        Learn slave to get used to cages and being locked for different periods of time (when not used and don’t have tasks from Miss)

Stage: a humiliation whore

Description: slave completely in humiliation, with a strong link between humiliation and pleasure. Sexual desires are completely controlled by Miss and orgasms are very rare. Slave is always horny, ready and eager to be used sexual by anyone.

Signs:

·        Clothes: very opened outfits (approved by Miss), humiliating tattoos, slutty underwear if there are any.

·        Poses: opened for everyone views, dripping and showing every device in slave.

·        Private: can’t stay private for any actions, until told otherwise.

·        RLV restrictions: no far touch, no fly, no minimap,  no shout, no norm (whisper only), no inventory, no names, no map, no edit, no rez, no build,  clothes locked, gagged (when her mouth is not used) permanent. Chat and IM can be restricted for some time.

·        Speech mode: polite, thankful speech, only when asked, but mostly have something in a mouth to keep slave aroused and busy.

·        Chastity: Full time chastity with orgasms from time to time (once in 1-2 weeks). Only Miss permitted orgasms.

·        Addressing to slave: “this slut”, “whore”, “this bitch”, “it”.

Common activities:

·        Constantly teasing, with no orgasm, using different devices (vibrators, plugs, eggs, etc).

·        Having sexual abuse by strangers on a regular basis, offer slave to friends (not slaves) to be used and abused.

·        Make slave beg to use her sexual, hoping for getting release during it (give some releases if slave’s behavior is whorish enough).

·        Make slave depict herself as a horny wet whore, dreaming to be abused by anyone (selfhumiliation scenes).

·        Make selfhumiliation natural and easy for slave.

Developing activities:

At this stage slave must go further in humiliation and start degrade toward a thing. Make slave understand her complete useless and unimportant. Slave must start feel herself lower then other slaves.

·        Make slave be used by slaves (sexual and not only sexual).

·        Make slave assist and clean other slaves (not as a secondary owner, but as a slave’s sub, as a machine).

·        Underline, that slave’s behavior is not a human one, and slave must be treated as an animal or thing.

·        Take slave’s ability to talk (completely) for some time, during some pet play or statue-play (or something like that).

·        Start learn slave to wear blindfold permanently (start from low darkenning).

·        Make slave into some stupid pet and treat it like it should be.

·        Get slave aroused during all degradation to set link between pleasure and degradation.

·        Start leaving slave in cage for some time, when unused and between sessions (it can be done in public, not only cages, but locked somehow strictly).

·        Permit  slave to cum only while in pain.

Stage: degradated whore

Description: slave is loosing human rights and attitude. She’s too horny and can’t control herself to act as a human. That’s why Miss needs to degrade this whore and restrict her even more.

Signs:

·        Clothes: mostly naked (approved by Miss), except humiliating tattoos, brand marks.  Can wear only slutty underwear if Miss approves it.

·        Poses: opened for everyone views, dripping and showing every device in slave, staying on the ground most of the time.

·        Private: can’t stay private for any actions, until told otherwise.

·        RLV restrictions: no far touch, no fly, no minimap,  no shout, no norm (whisper only), no inventory, no names, no map, no edit, no rez, no build,  clothes locked, no emote, gagged (when her mouth is not used) permanent. Chat and IM are restricted for much of time. Receiving chat can be switched off too.

·        Speech mode: speech must be avoid, make slave emote only (in restricted emotions)

·        Chastity: Full time chastity with stopping regular orgasms.

·        Addressing to slave: “it”, “this thing”

Common activities:

·        Constantly teasing, with no orgasm, using different devices (vibrators, plugs, eggs, etc).

·        Having sexual abuse by slaves and any strangers who doesn’t disdain.

·        Make this whore serve slaves.

·        Muted slave petplay (during this play slave can’t chat and restricted to use emotes, maybe can be restricted to understand people chat too, to become complete silly pet).

·        Slave must be locked somewhere when not used by anyone, having no freedom of movement alone.

Developing activities:

The last step to a thing for slave is accept herself as a thing and agree she’s not worth to be human or even a pet in any way. She’s just a thing for Miss and has to surrender to her will completely, as she has not enough brains for her own will.

·        Learn slave to wear blindfold more darken.

·        Don’t give slave permission to see and hear people talking at the same time (can see actions and emotions, but no chat and IM, or can hear chat and IM with blindfold (fully dark on almost dark) on).

·        Outline slave’s stupidity and prove her that she’s not supposed to talk as she has no enough brains for that.

·        Thing must not wear clothes… only tattoos, devices, brand marks.

·        Learn slave to shorten it’s IMs to 3-4 words (less words, less slave’s foolishness)

Stage: a thing

Signs:

·        Clothes: complete nudity, except told otherwise.

·        Poses: always on the ground, opened for anyone view.

·        Private: no, always must be exposed.

·        RLV restrictions: noInv, noTouch, noTP, blindfolded (maybe not completely, but dark enough), noChat (send), noEmotes, noIM permanent  (except Miss needs something of it). Receive chat messages can be switched off too for a long period too.

·        Speech mode: complete silent (no chat, noIM except welcoming Miss and extremely urgent needs(messages not longer then 6 words, better 3-4), noEmotes).

·        Chastity: all time chastity, orgasms only for the viewers pleasure and with severe pain (preferable in public).

·        Addressing to slave: none, as mostly silent all the time (when needed, use “it”, “this thing”).

Activities:

·        Public sex/humiliation and other plays with unknown people.

·        Public expositions in cages, statues, etc.

·        Borrowing to others, including strangers, slaves, for any periods.

·        Public free demonstrations of different equipment and technics (using this slave as demonstration model)

·        Any sexual or other usage by Miss, Her slaves, friends, anyone!

Thoughts on humiliation

This girl logged in to say hello to Miss Susy, but she was offline (it seems strange to me, as she is nearly always online :-) ). This girl wrote Miss hello as offline message and started to think what to do. There were several SIMs she wanted to visit and that what she has started. Those SIMs were mostly shops (this girl is always looking for some freebies). While wandering in the malls, this girl thought about Miss, herself and their yesterday talk on humiliation. This girl has got a feeling that Miss was not much into it and it was hard for her to get the point of view and start to press on girl’s self-rating. In her thoughts she wrote a letter to her sister Eddie, asking for an advice. Writing that letter she understood one more time how deep humiliation is in her: she feel tremble in her fingers, when she was typing: “…and soon i'll be your sister only formal, but

 in fact this girl will be Susy's family slut or whore used, abused, rented to friends and strangers

..... oh... that all seems a bit scary, but this girl wanna try this sort of degradation so much...”. This is one more fact proving that this girl has at least very strong tendency to become a slut by constant humiliation. And what’s more – she will feel horny from understanding her state and that will make her behavior even more sluty (fingers are trembling again…)

As for SL, this girl was not online today any more.