New point of view

Last day whore came online for some small amount of time and felt an urge to pass through the dog-training course. Whore just can't resist and spent next half an hour running over and over the logs, jumping over walls and passing through tube and tumbler. Whore found out some specific things about her movements (whore can move only on all four of her laps) and behavior of some parts of the course. Whore found out the action made by a SPACE button while movements. Whore was training overall (with no order, with no conscious reason). When time was over, whore wen to her kennel and understood she really likes what she were doing and she was doing it to perform better before Miss next time.

Some days after the "next time" came. Miss Eve called Alvie to see whore at passing the course. And whore failed. For some unknown reason whore felt very nervous and unsure and felt from the log between two high object at first, and then missed a the last log (leading to the ground). Whore felt awful, nearly crying. As whore was in ML whore didn't look up at Miss Eve or Alvie... Miss was not satisfied with whore's performance too, but gave whore another chance and on the third time whore passed the course completely without mistakes. That makes whore a bit more happier. Whore even afford herself to look up at Miss Eve and Alvie.Whore saw a picture like this (see below):

(whore's new point of view)

And whore understood how right her position was. Whore feels no right to look at others otherwise, then upward. The feeling was intensified by the fact, that Miss Eve and Alvie were discussing something about this whore, without not even mentioning this whore presence. Like talking about some animal or even an object (and that's again very near to the reality for now).
Oh, it's so had to describe the mix of feelings from that moment. Here's just some of them:

• joy and happiness from completing the course, completing Miss order, being near Miss
• humiliation from being lowed to the ground and being muted, and restricted to ML,
• arouse from being humiliated and having nothing to do with that,
• even more aroused from being aroused from such awful and shameful things,
• submission to any decision of Miss Eve and 
• readiness to complete any Miss Eve order

Alvie has something else to do and leave very quick after that. Miss Eve lead this whore to a skybox (a fireplace) and had a talk with her. Yes, Miss Eve removed bits and bridle (with chat restrictions) and asked several questions. One of them was how whore feels about getting a OC Collar back. And whore felt really nothing about that and answered just common words about submitting to any Miss decisions. That was a mistake, as Miss wanted to get a direct answer about whore feeling. And after some tips from Miss, whore finally answered: "Whore feels ready for that, Miss". That was the answer Miss liked, but as it was said not at once, Miss decided to lock this whore into the cage for a 30 minutes, to have whore think about her style of answering (yes, it's a huge problem, as this whore can't answer short and direct,  always writing a lot about all questions aspects and some aspect laying close to the subject). Well, maybe it's just another story, and whore will write about it some time later...

Pet's feelings

Today whore finally met her owner again online (for some RL reasons whore was not online for more then a week). Whore was very-very glad, in spite of she can't say how glad she was, because of bits and bridle and chat restrictions. But hope Miss understood everything by a wide whore's smile.
Miss showed a new training course for her pet (this whore) and ordered to go through it. Unfortunately whore didn't notice the start mark and tried to pass it from the finish. After several remarks from Miss whore felt herself so silly (just like a stupid little puppy *blushes*). At last whore saw the green mark of the beginning and passed through it.
The course consists of a jumping area, climbing log and a log at some height, a pipe, a tumbler (where you can go only over the green spinning line) with a water bath under it, a log to come down to the ground level. You can see it all at a picture right below.

(a training ground for a dog-whore)

But whore must spoil before spin and failed the first pass completely: too long jumps and a fall down from tumbler. Miss demanded another try and that time whore completed the path. After landing to the finish spot, whore came to Miss with the overflowing feeling of happiness from completing Miss command. Whore tried to express it some way, but could only smile happily, listening Miss telling whore was a good pet. The only thin whore thought at that moment was th thought that she has made Miss Eve happy. And that thought was filling whore's soul with pleasure and joy. So whore looked upward at Miss with a happy smile on her face.

Right at that moment Miss Eve said: "I want you to think about something Whore. Look at how you are sitting here, bit and bridle, cuffs on, chasted.Over all, leashed to an owner, nothing more then an animal, not even with behavior. I tell you to do or not to do something, you obey. I want to know how this feels for you whore.". Whore had no chance to answer Miss at that moment (as pet was gagged by bits and bridle). And now whore can answer Miss: "Wonderful!". Whore has no idea how it works, but it works for her and that's absolutely clear. For some reason understanding the fact of all restrictions, total power exchange, absolute control and complete dependence makes this whore want to say something, but not anything particular, want to go somewhere, but nowhere particular and as a result -- whore stands still and silent. And the only thing, that can get whore out of that state is an order of her owner.
This is a mysterious feeling for whore, as she can't understand it, can't analyze it, but can watch it again and again inside her mind (in RL!!!!). And that's whore is thankful Miss Eve for.

PS. Maybe some day whore will find out the source and mechanism of that feeling, but as for now, whore will just feel it and be happy with it. Thank you again, Miss Eve for this wonderful emotional gift.

Dog-whore

Today Miss Eve said that she'd prefer this whore to be trained as her dog-whore. That means no more milking but dog-training. Miss said, that she's gonna build an agility-course for this whore. And she even showed an example of it's part. Whore tried to pass some part of it, and found out that it was not so easy. But much more easy in the mouselook (ML).
Some words about ML. ML is not handy for chat. That's why whore doesn't use it very often (who does?). Switching to it was some kind of restriction, whore has to make to herself. And after having to switch into this mode, whore felt even more restricted and helpless, then before (having no inventory, teleport, map, names and radar) and very depended on Miss. This feeling was a surprise for whore (she had not felt something like this for a long-long time), but a very pleasant surprise... as whore likes this feeling so much! Another thing ML is good for -- it forces whore to focus all her attention to the SL window, as there's not chat history in it and everything that was said is disappearing after some time from the screen.
All this brought whore to a thought, that ML can mark some mode of this whore's mind (like in the blog of Alternative mindset, where a girl mark her state of a doll by wearing a sepia lens, if whore is not mistaken), mind of a non-human being, a dog or any other animal Miss wants this whore to be. Whore liked this mode so much, that even asked if Misss can lock her to ML (unfortunately there's no such an option in the collar). However, now whore has a new marker of her mind state, and it can be a good anchor (of being in this state, and then even bring whore to this state) and can be used in further whore development as Miss Eve's dog-whore.

Another thing whore has to do now, as a dog -- is to crawl on her knees and hands. That seems very natural for a new state of this whore.

PS. Sorry for this post being a bit muddled, and a bit late. For some RL reasons there was no chance for this whore to post it earlier and be online too. Hope everything will be OK from now on... at least for some time, as whore missed Miss Eve a lot during this period of silence.

A new pet

Today Miss Eve has got a new pet... but let this whore tell everything in order.

The day before Miss Eve had put this whore on a massage device, that sucked and massaged her breast (what a wonderful feeling it was). And even added one more vibrator to this whore cunt. Unfortunately that lasts not so long.
Unfortunately, whore had to leave that day, but on the next day Miss Eve continued playing with her whore.

She put her on a device with 2 vibrators and run them both. To train whore keep silent, Miss put a banana gag into the whore's mouth and set it up to shock whore's tong every time she's trying to say something out loud. At first it was not difficult, but as whore was coming closer and close to the edge of orgasm, keeping muted was getting harder and harder.

 (whore ridding 2 vibrators at the same time)

Finally whore had got shocked from the belt and gag in one time. That made whore cry more, and another shock to her mouth made whore strive hard and shut up. Then absolutely unexpected, Miss took whore's chastity off and let whore have an full-blown orgasm, that made this whore scream one more time and get several shocks from banana gag again. After that Miss seemed to be satisfied. And then she told: "I can make you scream when I want, I can make you have an orgasm when I want, I don't even have to do anything for it" -- one phrase, just a phrase, but somehow, it made this whore feel a strike of submission.Some kind of deep submission, when whore completely understands her place and that makes her ready for everything her owner will order. Rather strange and very-very pleasant feeling.

Then whore was milked by Miss for the first time and even gave some milk. Whore was so glad, that she could finally do it (milk producing). Although it hurts a bit while sucking, but it was still very pleasant. Then whore had to drink all produced milk.

After all that Miss made herself comfortable on the couch and whore was placed nearby on the carpet, chained to the leash post. Miss had put on whore bits and bridle. Whore was not supposed to talk again and can emote not much then an animal can. Miss Eve wanted to ask whore some questions. During that whore  could only answer "yes" or "no" and emote in some way. At first it was not easy to keep silent, but as the talk goes on, whore felt very comfortable without right for the words and at the end of conversation acts easily.

Whore felt comfortable, sitting naked, on her knees, before Miss Eve, having no names, maps, TP and inventory access, having no right to speak and no chance to run away. If only someone tell this whore some time ago, she would not believe that person. And whore can hardly believe herself, writing all that now.

And at the end of conversation Miss asked the main question of that day (at least for the whore):

Miss Eve slides a finger briefly through your hair and smiles
Whore take a deep breath in...
Miss Eve: Then a question whore, are you happy like this?
Whore waits a bit...
Miss Eve: Hmm, could you be happy like this
Whore slowly nods...
Miss Eve grins
Whore feels a tear drops from her eye...
Whore looks down...
Miss Eve: I somehow knew that would be the answer
Whore moves a bit forward, but can't move much...
Miss Eve wipes the tear away and hugs you
Whore tries to stay as close to Miss as she can
Miss Eve: I want you to remember what you just answered whore, and to know what you are once again. For it is what you are
Whore takes several deep breathes... and nods
Whore feels more tears came from her eyes, but she looks happily at Miss...

And that's absolutely true feelings. Thank you for all that, Miss Eve.