Why i like tease and denial

First, let me say i'm fine. It was quite a long time, since my last post and that time was full of events, but mostly not online. Main direction concerning BDSM is my further moving into setting it up in real life. I have not been online for quite a long and pipped inside SL just to see, if it's still going :)
I've got a RL partner, whom i'd like to control me. It's not that easy to achieve it with a vanilla partner, but i do my best to develop Dom side in my significant other. But let's come back to tease and denial.

Last month or so, i decided to try strict tease and denial in RL. I granted the right to permit my orgasms to my SO and stop from cumming when no one's looking (yes, that's my sin!). The result is really worth doing. And i do like it. The main change is surely in growing libido. The more i denied, the less i need to become aroused. Being teased and denied for a long period of time makes me ready for sexual activity nearly all the time. And what's more, i'm ready to try more and more different things.
For me, the main magic of a denial is in a moment, when you've been close to orgasm, but everything stopped and you are calming down. My sly mind start playing in a game, when i'm ready to do anything, just to have another chance to come to the edge and maybe orgasm. This is the moment, when i can be suggested to try some things, that i would never do previously. Hope some day someone will use this feature of mine for their pleasure.

Another wonderful thing in denial is the exhaustion after a long session, when edged a lot of time, denied all the time, tortured, humiliated (if you were lucky) and finally moved yourself into a state when you are full of hormones and other blood chemistry, like you've had an orgasm, but without actual orgasm. In this state you are laying flat, unable to move, moaning and shaking a bit with a white noise in you head. Extremely wonderful emotions.

On the other hand, when i permitted orgasm, it is good most of the times, but after it i feel some emptiness and some kind of loss and a bit emotionally depressed. And that's another argument for denial for me.

As there are some followers and readers, i'd like to ask do you like T&D and if so, what do you like in it and why? I'll be glad if you share with us.

Emotional mix

Today was a very peculiar day (night, to be precise).
Whore had a free day in RL and spent a lot of time reading different blogs, forums about all BDSM aspects. In the evening Miss could came online to see her property. Miss wanted to talk to whore and asked her different question, whore told Miss her SL story (from the very beginning): about her unowned period, about some experience with banishment, and all whore's owners.
After that Miss lead whore back to a playroom. Whore was alone at that moment in RL and asked if she can wear RL clips or even play with herself (that was the first time whore asked permission for playing in RL). Miss was surprised (whore was surprised with her own question too). Miss told whore to put clips and pass course 2 times in a row before it.Whore passed, not for the first attempt, but has passed.

(new course picture)

Miss granted whore a permission to play with herself, but demanded to describe what was going on in RL. Whore offered Miss to guide her in playing and Miss agreed.
Miss started slowly and didn't want to be quick, however whore was already horny. Miss leaded whore telling how and where she must touch herself, how hard and so on. Whore tried to react as quickly, as she could. Miss grins doing it and put remarks like: "It suits you whore" from time to time. That made whore blushing, but very-very horny(RL). Finally whore was rubbing herself fiercely, moaning out loud and humping on her chair. For some RL reasons, (whore limits) Miss can't permit whore to have an orgasm (and whore can't grant it to herself too), that's why whore had to stop herself at the edge.Whore was shaking from desire and lust. Whore wants only one thing -- more stimulation. But Miss Eve told to stop and whore couldn't disobey.
All that was so unexpected, strange, humiliating and at the same time excited and delightful. Miss told whore to pass the course one more time and whore did it reeling from side to side(SL) with shaking hands on the mouse(RL). But whore made it from the first attempt. After that whore begged for some more touchings, but Miss denied and ordered whore not to play with herself one more hour. That was hard for whore and so wise for Miss, as the first 10-50 minutes from the edge are filled with the desire most of all.
After that Miss talked to whore for some more time and discussed what had happened. Figured out, everyone enjoyed the "incident". And that made whore hope for continuation some day.

After logging out from SL, whore thought a lot about what had happened. And how it can effect her RL. Finally whore concluded, that it has positive sides:

1. Whore should be guided and limited in playing with herself in RL and now Miss can do it, if she'd like to, of course.
2. Whore deals better with orders from some other people, then with selfmade decisions and ordered by Miss whore can be more often denied, then before.
3. Now Miss can influence not only whore's avatar in SL, but also RL person and even (oh, God!) make some RL punishments for RL and SL faults (for making whore better property in SL and better submissive in RL).
4. Miss, knowing now much more about whore, didn't move away from whore and seemed even liked what is going on.
5. Miss has more opportunities and directions to develop her... mm... relations with whore.

But there are some negative sides too:

1. Whore has some moral responsibilities in RL and should be very careful not to brake or make harm to them.
2. Whore should now be very careful, as mixing RL and SL can lead to something bad (but can be a way to something very good too!!!)

And now, whore has a real mix of emotions inside: desire to continue and see what will this lead to, fear from unknown and unexpected (but really wanted) RL power exchange.

Whore's favorite blogs

After moving her diary to the public blog, whore started to look through blogs much more often. It's much easier to get new posts from different blogs, when you are a registered user of this system.
At first whore marked herself as a follower of some blogs she was fond of long ago. But after some time whore have found some more blogs, seemed to be interesting to her. And then, looking at followers of that blogs, whore opened for herself even more blogs. That's how whore is following now some blogs and is glad to see some new posts nearly every day.

(not this whore, just an old picture to illustrate this post)

In this post whore would like to tell about some of her favorites blogs (some old ones, and some pretty new for her).

Married Man's Fucktoy
This is the blog, whore was reading for a very long time. And whore is nearly admiring that woman.Fucktoy describes her way to submission and her feeling along that way. Reading this blog for quite a long time, whore see the development and the growth of a slave part of that woman. It's very interesting to see how she's becoming more and more submissive and how her limits are expanding and vanishing.



life as slave kk / My naked ass slaveAnother "old friend" of this whore is a blog of a ~50-years old woman, happy in her relations with her owner. She's another happy woman in a state of 24/7 slave fro her master, telling her readers about activities and her feelings. It's very interesting to this whore to read about it. Whore would like to learn to make her thought in post as clear, as this woman can.

Alternative Mindsets
This blog is something new to this whore. Whore found it by followers of some other blog and felt something very similar in the author with herself. Thу author of this blog likes humiliation and objectification (degradation in some way). She is fond of it in RL (!!!). And she really plays a doll and a cow (not for 24/7, but still she's trying it in RL!). And that's so exciting! Whore likes to learn that woman feelings and read her ideas about all that.

Female Orgasm Denial
The last, but not the less interesting blog is about orgasm denial. Woman orgasm denial. The thought about it is making this whore drip. And in this blog there are different posts from different people, telling about themselves, their needs, occupation and of course desires to cum. The blogger seems to give directives for how long should this or that person cum or be denied. There are some teases and some ideas for arranging a denial periods. Wonderful blog to read from the beginning up to the end.

Well, there are much more interesting blog this whore follows. Hope to have some time to write about them either.